Fair Credit

The regrets in life start small
insignificant to the point where you don't notice
in class we learn that every choice
no matter how small
makes you
creates you.

the dilemma involves a regret
one that made her realize what she missed
is it too late
has he moved on to this other girl
why does she care
why does it even bother her
why does it move her soul in a way
that it feels like alcohol poured on an open wound

it burns but it also disinfects
there is a sharp pain but
the bacteria that ruins your life is gone
be happy and rejoice

you look at that scar every day
it is attached to you physically
thus triggering your emotions
your mind plays tricks on your body
and the vice is applied

then what can you do
if you cry that means you felt something
if you don't you end up wondering
pondering the same question
what if

what is the next step?
what can she do?
I look at her and I feel the hurt
the rejection
the partial loss of the self
she had given herself to him
without even knowing

crazy...